I have trouble getting into church.
This never used to be a problem. When I was in the youth group, I loved going to church. I loved worship and the teaching and everything. But I find myself examining things a little more closely these days, and I find myself frustrated with something.
I think, mostly, that my problem is with prayers. Whereas I used to be the “uh huh…mmm” kinda active prayer, nodding my head with every cliche line, I now feel like nothing is being said. You can only say “thank you for being so good to us, and we’re so glad you sent your son to die on the Cross” so many times before it rings hollow. And most church prayers ring hollow to me now.
Occasionally, someone will get up and pray and it will get me fired up again. Sometimes a person will really put some thought into what they’re praying for and it becomes poetic and meaningful to me, but the days of listening to someone saying “God, you’re so awesome” 17 different ways is over.
Anyone else feel the same way? I hope I’m not the only one who is feeling these things, cause I guess it would make me a heretic.